The Things I Didn’t Say

I spend a lot of time sleeping because it’s better than looking into your face or looking at myself and seeing disappointment.

I feel confused and alone.

You never listen to me.

I understand what you’re going through, more than you know.

Those times where I hurt myself weren’t all accidents.

I feel like a mansion infested with termites.

I know you’re angry.

I can’t breathe.

Of course, I care!

Sometimes I forget to text you back. Sometimes I genuinely don’t have the energy to hold a conversation.

I need your support

You’re wrong.

I’m sorry.

I feel invisible.

I don’t always want to be the one that’s there for everyone else.

I am afraid if I show you all of me, you won’t love me.

I’m jealous of the fact you’ve loved someone else before.

I don’t see all the good things you see in me.

I love you, but I don’t want to talk to you.

I don’t always want to go, but I want you to keep inviting me.

I want to stop giving you chances you always find new ways to disappoint me.

I don’t like you I don’t want to be your friend.

You’re making me uncomfortable.

I want to know more about you.

I think you’re beautiful/handsome.

I don’t want to smile.

I don’t want to talk to you.

We’re not as close as you think we are.

I don’t trust you.

I’m really scared.

I’m not happy.

I wish you would leave.

I don’t know what I’d do or who I’d be without you.

I don’t know why I feel so alone.

I don’t want a hug.

My head feels heavy and my chest feels empty.

I’m sort of fine but I’m not fine.

What you did hurt me.

No.

I’m not okay.