#AdultGoals

I am an adult! I am saying it more to convince myself than anything else. I do adult things like work and pay bills, but there has to be more to it than that. I do not even like those things, they are really draining. I am still early on in my adulting journey, I [...]

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My Alter Ego

I have an alter ego, they are similar to me, but with some major tweaks. They are confident, they are hilarious, they speak their mind, and they do not give any effs! My interactions in real life are unassuming and plain. I do not necessarily like it, but it is hard for me to break [...]

Small Talk: A Workplace Curse

The funny thing about my anxiety is that if there is chaos around me, I can act without overthinking or being afraid of the outcome. All focus is on a specific situation, I do not have a chance to think about myself. Decisions need to happen now or something can go awry. However, on those [...]

Classic Comedy Specials For a Bad Day

Even when I feel like nothing can turn my terrible day(s) around and I really do not want to smile, putting on a comedy special will inevitably make me crack. I do not like feeling bad but I do like to laugh, so why not put on something I know will provoke some cackles and [...]

Your Wedding, My Prison

Will you be my bridesmaid?"I am so happy for you! I promise, I really am. But I do not want to be in your wedding. You understand, right? Are we still on for cupcakes in three months?" Yeah, that does not sound right. For someone who feels she is disliked by most, I sure do [...]

“What Do You Want?” Part 2

April 11, 2018 The Interim CEO gathers all the staff on the 4th floor of our organization. I walk to the printer to grab some documents and my colleague asks me if I am coming. “Coming to what?” I say. She shrugs and says “I don’t know, some emergency meeting.” I had a dentist appointment [...]

The Teapot

This evening, I left the house with the teapot on the stove. My mind was elsewhere, as it has been for the last couple of weeks. Sometimes I cannot remember what I just did, what I said, or how I got somewhere. I have been on autopilot, going through the motions and completing  tasks without [...]

Are We Friends?

Becoming my friend is a long, arduous process. It usually takes me a year or more before I feel like I can be myself and until then, it is one-sided conversations, lots of head nodding, and me deflecting personal questions so the other person continues to talk about themselves or something else. Then, when we [...]

“Tell Your Story in Six Words”

Yesterday, I had the honor of listening to Michele Norris speak in person at a wonderful Women's Forum. If you do not know who she is, she is an award-winning journalist and author and was the first African-American female to host a series on National Public Radio (NPR); she formally hosted NPR's All Things Considered. On [...]

“What Do You Want?”

Today I had a hard conversation with my boss. I spent days rehearsing it and it still did not turn out the way I planned. Here were my main points: I am tired of being taken advantage of. I am not being compensated fairly. If I do not see changes, I will look for other [...]