Have You Ever Been Depressed?

"Have you ever been depressed?" 32,000 feet in the air, my mom turned to me, clear-eyed and interested, and asked me this question. I thought to myself she doesn't know? Well, of course, she doesn't. I don't exactly broadcast my mental health the way I should. Staring out the plane window, I took a deep [...]

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The Things I Didn’t Say

I spend a lot of time sleeping because it's better than looking into your face or looking at myself and seeing disappointment. I feel confused and alone. You never listen to me. I understand what you're going through, more than you know. Those times where I hurt myself weren't all accidents. I feel like a [...]

True Life: I am an Actual Person

It has been a long time coming, but I thought I would reveal a little more about myself. I have been feeling a little disconnected, especially when no one actually knows my name; that's my own fault, there is a sense of safety in anonymity. Another factor is, much to my surprise, I now have [...]

AwkAnxAvg 6: Alarm Clock

"Hey, girl!" No, not again. "Psst, I know you hear me. Don't be like that!" "I am not opening my eyes, I refuse. Be gone!" "You're funny." This is the third night in a row. I just want to sleep. This little whisper in my ear is enough to make me stir and open my [...]

Dance, Dance: Pick Me Up Playlist

My blogging tribe, Laura Spoonie and Johnzelle, tagged me to participate in creating a "Pick me up playlist" for World Mental Health Day. Laura created the tag, a brilliant way to spread positivity and light. If I could only use three words to describe each of these individuals I would say: Laura: warrior, authentic, and [...]

10 Everyday Victories for your Mental Health

I know for me when my mental health is not in the best shape, ordinary tasks seem futile. The motivation is nonexistent and to be fair, why should I care about my settings when I feel terrible? In the end, our environment tends to reflect our mental turmoil. There are days when something as simple [...]

Am I a Blogger?

I know I am a person that has a blog. Here it is, welcome. I blog regularly, but can I really call myself a blogger? Austin called me a creative the other day, I was honored, but I do not believe I can claim that label. The conversation continued: Do you create things? Yeah? Do [...]

September 2018: Thrills and Exhaustion

I cannot believe September is almost over! I tend to lose track of time, but I do feel I blinked in July and suddenly October is knocking. This month, in particular, has been filled with new experiences and wonders; I am honestly exhausted and I could use a solid two weeks' slumber. I would also [...]

Lessons From a New Tattoo

“Dude, life’s too short to take yourself and your skin too seriously.” -Andy, Aart Accent tattoo Last week, we took a short vacation to New Orleans. It was our first time! Of course when everyone thinks of NOLA, they typically imagine Mardi Gras or Bourbon Street; beads, boobs, and booze. Fortunately, I strategically planned our [...]

AwkAnxAvg 5: You Up?

"Hey" with three dots, an ellipses, what does that mean? Remember, we are learning not to panic. My fingers fumble as I prepare to respond back. Each text exchange feels like it's the first. I don't know why, maybe because I am not used to people wanting to chat with me. Those treacherous three dots [...]