Have You Ever Been Depressed?

"Have you ever been depressed?" 32,000 feet in the air, my mom turned to me, clear-eyed and interested, and asked me this question. I thought to myself she doesn't know? Well, of course, she doesn't. I don't exactly broadcast my mental health the way I should. Staring out the plane window, I took a deep [...]

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I Am Still Here

And no, this is not a reference to that Joaquin Phoenix movie that's always popping up on Netflix. But seriously, hi friends! It has been an uncomfortably long time since I have been engaged in the blogosphere. I'm not too thrilled about that, especially because I know I have been missing out on a lot [...]

The Vortex

Sometimes I found myself in, what I like to call, the vortex. It's a whirlpool of feelings and emotions that sucks me in and makes it hard to escape. Even when everything seems okay, one small thing can trigger it. In the vortex, its melancholy membrane filters out joy, motivation, and creativity and floods the [...]

The Things I Didn’t Say

I spend a lot of time sleeping because it's better than looking into your face or looking at myself and seeing disappointment. I feel confused and alone. You never listen to me. I understand what you're going through, more than you know. Those times where I hurt myself weren't all accidents. I feel like a [...]

True Life: I am an Actual Person

It has been a long time coming, but I thought I would reveal a little more about myself. I have been feeling a little disconnected, especially when no one actually knows my name; that's my own fault, there is a sense of safety in anonymity. Another factor is, much to my surprise, I now have [...]

Dance, Dance: Pick Me Up Playlist

My blogging tribe, Laura Spoonie and Johnzelle, tagged me to participate in creating a "Pick me up playlist" for World Mental Health Day. Laura created the tag, a brilliant way to spread positivity and light. If I could only use three words to describe each of these individuals I would say: Laura: warrior, authentic, and [...]

10 Everyday Victories for your Mental Health

I know for me when my mental health is not in the best shape, ordinary tasks seem futile. The motivation is nonexistent and to be fair, why should I care about my settings when I feel terrible? In the end, our environment tends to reflect our mental turmoil. There are days when something as simple [...]

You Are Not Alone

You're born into this world alone and you'll die alone. You know that statement is entirely false, right? I usually hear this when someone is trying to sound profound; sometimes, it is used as justification for failed relationships. In reality, you came into this world literally connected to someone else. What happened between then and [...]

Hello Sleeplessness, My Old Friend

I have gone through this weird evolution of sleep. When I was younger up until the first year of undergrad, I would be able to fall asleep fairly easily and stay asleep. In high school, as I mentioned in a previous post, I would go to sleep right after school, skip dinner, and sleep until [...]

An Anxious Kid, All Grown Up

Before I could give it a name to it, I exhibited signs as of being an extremely anxious child. My parents would tell my teachers I was very shy and needed more time to warm up. I had regular stomachaches, was irritable, sensitive, and hardly spoke. My first-grade teacher did not think I could read [...]