AwkAnxAvg 5: You Up?

“Hey” with three dots, an ellipses, what does that mean? Remember, we are learning not to panic. My fingers fumble as I prepare to respond back. Each text exchange feels like it’s the first. I don’t know why, maybe because I am not used to people wanting to chat with me. Those treacherous three dots float at the corner of the screen. Please don’t overthink … Continue reading AwkAnxAvg 5: You Up?

AwkAnxAvg 4: Revelations

If you are not ruining things, you are completely halting their potential. You could have a good thing here. Hi positive thoughts, thank you for joining us. You make a valid point, now hear me out, she could realize she is wasting her time and quickly come to the conclusion that I am boring and average. I could possibly be distracting her from meeting a … Continue reading AwkAnxAvg 4: Revelations

AwkAnxAvg 3: Chicken Fingers

“I would like the chicken fingers.” “I would like the chicken fingers, please.” “I would like…” “What are you doing?” Her voice broke my rehearsing. Why do I think out loud? For once, I will not overthink it, I am going to try and play it cool. “Hmm, what’s that?” Real cool. “What are you doing? I hear you mumbling behind your menu.” Oh what … Continue reading AwkAnxAvg 3: Chicken Fingers

AwkAnxAvg 2: Mindful-what?

All I need to do is breathe. Breathe and clear my mind. Feet planted firmly on the ground? Check. Palms faced up, on my lap? Check. Great! Now, take a deep breath in and slowly exhale. Okay, you are doing it, Jayla. Just keep it up. Wait, you’re thinking, stop thinking. But still, good job girl! Internal high five. Okay, okay, I am focusing on … Continue reading AwkAnxAvg 2: Mindful-what?

Flash Fiction: More Weight!

“Confess! Confess! Confess! Confess!” I can hear the others over my sobs. My classmates; Anne, Sarah, and Elizabeth, they lied! “Confess sweet girl. God will have mercy on you. He is forgiving!” I have done nothing wrong! I am innocent! Why does no one believe me? I plead with the reverend, I have no more tears to shed. “You won’t confess, eh? More weight!” No, … Continue reading Flash Fiction: More Weight!